I should really try to write in this more, but quite frankly- I just forget about it. I've gone through a lot of change since I last wrote in here, so I deleted my few entries and updated my journal. I think I like it a bit better now. It's been about another two years since I last looked at this and Ateotu has changed so much that I no longer feel the need to keep a journal to keep updates on whatever.. because I simply don't feel like sharing that anymore.

When I first started writing in this journal, I must have been at least 16-17, though about three years later, I'm now 20 and an adult... and I'm quickly approaching 21. The years have flown by me very quickly and a lot have happened then that I couldn't possibly reaccount for right now. Maybe as time progresses and I can stay more dedicated to this?

I found that time has been growing faster every year and even though I've only been around for 2 decades, I already feel old. The times are troubling and I don't understand the ways of the youth anymore. I don't think it's all that interesting anyways because they're all going downhill as their eyes seek that spotlight of stardom.

I guess that hasn't really changed yet. Everyone wants to be famous or have a spotlight on them still. Sigh.

I'm still frightened sometimes that some of these kids might be my doctor when I'm old... So hopefully these things they're doing will be just phases that they will grow out of.